I met someone...again.

I love my working life. Frankly speaking. I met nice people, who are true to you. You might think I'm naive as I just started my working life for 3 months but my intuition tells me so :D

As my title, I met someone I like a lot. This is another one-sided love of mine again :( Really like him so much that my chest hurts. He got a couple of girl-friends surrounding him. Pretty, lovely, cute, feminine, elegant, bubbly... and me, just an normal ugly one who think highly of myself that he will likes me :( I'm so happy whenever I see him.

I think I'm making a fool of myself at times. I care too much about him that I'm losing my own self. I talked rubbish that I regretted blurting out brainlessly. I think he can't stand me but as being polite, he tolerate who I am. I can't control my own feeling. I'm waiting for his messages everyday though it's impossible for him to do so. If miracles does happen but it doesn't apply on me.

Is it too obvious? I think he knows how I feel because my clique always say it out loud. He's so nice that he never avoid me. He's just so nice that makes me double sad. I'm looking forward for something that doesn't belong to me.

How to stop liking him? Meeting him everyday at work makes it difficult to accomplish. My mind just can't function well whenever he's around.

Why am I not born a beauty? I don't blame my parents, but the world's so reality. Pretty people stands tall and ugly faggot like me should hide and die alone. That's my life. Get criticised and face the fact that I'm super duper ugly woman living in this world.

Why he don't like me? Why he's not in love with me? Why am I born such an ugly faggot? Why are my characters and personality such a nuisance?

Will I be loved?